Gone to the ocean
where the pelicans fly,
gonna soak in the sun
with my kid and my guy.
Away from the city
the crime and the smog,
what the hell will I do
without my blog?
(see ya in a few days...)
January 17, 2002
Gone to the ocean
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 4:35 PM
January 15, 2002
Top ten reasons I wish RageBoy would blog more:
10. I don’t have to blog if I’m busy reading his.
9. My dire straits album is getting dusty.
8. I need an excuse to read The Harvard Business Review.
7. I got my war on with no place to go.
6. One word: Zeitgeist
5. Every once in a while, I kinda, sorta understand him.
4. What good’s a meme if no one’s there to propagate?
3. That "Grumpy Fuck" Winer is starting to make sense.
2. Can’t get enough of that funky stuff.
1. I’m still waiting to find out how the LoveLeash worked out.
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 10:03 PM
screaming to the edge
I stop short
and take wing,
I knew you yesterday,
the someone else
you were then,
something in your
made me believe.
Rising with a star
was it something I said?
Without the death
so untie me then.
And in the end,
will it matter to you
if I leap and lose?
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 7:02 PM
January 13, 2002
Cixous writes: "I want the word depays (uncountry); I am sorry we don't have it, since the uncountry is not supposed to exist. Only pays (country) and depaysement exist. I like beings who belong to the removal (depaysement)."
I leave Cixous and my journey down the three steps here, in my own uncountry. Although she writes more, on naming, on sex and the presence/absence of gender, on dying and flowers and Kafka's deathbed scraps of paper, I'm not there yet. I have read it, but I am not that far in my own journey. I will stay for now in the School of Roots, somewhere between Exile and Uncountry. You go on without me. Because this is where I need to stay, at least for now.
Unbeing is hard. Transitional, but I don't know to what. "Un" is not forever, because there is the dying to be done. And thank you Helene Cixous. I haven't found any other writer as curious as I am with dying and its inherent tangles with writing, with the writer.
So as I close this portion of my blog to Cixous, you know me. I am the one who lost early and often, and then almost for good. I am the one who dreams of creation and babies who are born, lost, and sometimes never found again. And I am the one struggling with my roots, what they mean to me and my daughter, who is calling me back, just now, as I finish this:
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 9:49 PM