February 08, 2003


booo. hisss. splat. crap.

Busy reinforcing my own ass right now. working on getting my life's work of work in order, because, well, we all need to do that right now. Which means a revamped about me page coming soon.

In the mean time, I thought yesterday about m-blogging and how I'd like to be able to take my HipTop into my dreams with me. It's fine to run around the town and the house snapping tinsy pictures and posting your life as it unfolds. But wouldn't it be special if we could take our little blogomatics into our dream world to capture what's going on there. Ultimately more interesting as new archetypes of the apocolypse emerge from the dream place. At least from mine.

wooosh, boom, crash, hush.

Fresh Fish Alert

whaa ha ha ha ha! the man is a genius.

February 07, 2003

When Gary Met Halley

Halley's hit the UK, taking it by storm, by the sounds of her-who-just-called from the front seat of Gary Turner's car. For his part, Gary sounds as well as anyone who's had Halley storm into their lives taking their heart, family, and phone line hostage. It's never easy.

I've told Gary for weeks to hide the silverware and the baby. He just doesn't know Halley. But now he does. Between fits of laughter, I think I heard him say something like, "Help." He asked me to keep an eye on his blog--if he doesn't post soon I'm supposed to "alert the authorities."

Halley had her own welcoming committee at her hotel. Apparently the South African Rugby Team is staying there too:

I'm not sure where this will all end.

Halley, you're voice is still ringing in my ears.

Gary, you're in my thoughts. Hang on.

February 06, 2003

my name.

Can someone out there with the artistic/graphical talent I lack please make me a nice logo type design of my name? As a jpg? You know, just a nice type face or something creative or not that says "Jeneane Sessum" that I can use online? Promise to link to the site of the artist whenever used. Oh, my name? Jeneane Sessum. Yes, but you know that. I sure would like to have it. Much thanks.

Nothing more to add

He keeps doing it!

February 04, 2003

You see, it goes something like this...

And a picture paints a thousand posts.

Uh hu--dat's what I'm talkin' bout

Burning Bird does her usual great job of boiling down what's gone down. What I've expressed as my lack of emotion/grief/loss/tragic dismay/empathy over the Columbia Shuttle mishap has had some bloggers wondering if they know the real me. And now they know a little more of this me than they knew before. It's gettin realer and realer. Does real = ugly? Sometimes. Yep.

Welcome to my soul.

Infrared night vision gear advised.

hypothetical relationships?

Liz was angry about my saying that yes, I'd keep a piece of metal from the shuttle debris if it fell in my yard. She writes of her disappointment about my slimey side, saying:

I was shaken, deeply, by this. I'm appalled by the belief that profiting from tragedy--no matter how removed you feel from that tragedy--is a legitimate expression of "capitalism." I'm trying to imagine how Jeneane's daughter would feel, years from now, if her "money for school" was acquired through the sale of this debris. I'm wondering if Jeneane's belief that 'anything that lands in her yard is hers' extends to human remains--heck, those are probably worth even more, right? Likely to fetch a bundle on ebay from collectors.

Why this makes me so angry, I'm not sure. I suppose it's because it comes from someone's whose writings I trust--someone who writes so beautifully about her relationship with her daughter, her frustrations with injustice. It's hard to reconcile this self-described "slimey" statement with the person I feel as though I've come to know through her writing.

I like Liz and I have a deep professional and personal respect for her. Plus she lives in my old home town. (I wouldn't be the only one walking around Rochester with a less-than-popular response to this particular hypothetical dillemma--I'll bet you that.) So we can shorten this up by saying, I like Liz and Liz either liked or likes me. But I wrote something that made her feel "angry" and gave her trouble reconciling all the parts of who I am. And yes, I assure you, this is one of those sides.

However, I'm not stupid. I said I would wait a few years.

I wrote a comment over at Liz's place explaining how I came to my hypothetical decision. But it didn't go far enough. Whether or not it's capitalism (we find or earn, we barter), barbarism, or some other ism, the point is that because I fessed up I'd probably do it, Liz seems to be grappling with feeling differently about me. Because I told the truth, and that truth was ugly to her. I could have lied. I could have just gone offline for a day or two. But why? Why is my truth any less tolerable? What would be a "non-appalling" response to my hypothetical situation?

If you found a piece of the space shuttle in your yard five years from now--or if you move to Texas and buy a house and are planting a garden one day and you find a chunk--what do you do then? You going to give it back? Not touch it? Pretend it's nothing? Does it carry that same grave weight for you now that it's not front-page news?

You're going to keep it. And if you're not emotionally attached to space flight or related to one of the crew, you're probably going to sell it. Or save it so that someone else in your family can sell it one day.

Why is it so different that I said so from day one?

Because when I experience loss, definition and constraints around that loss remain consistent, forever. From loss-day on.

I've actually been queasy at the myriad in the realworld and online throwing themselves on the media's neatly arranged tombstones.

Tom wrote something great about how the media--and in this instance I think blogland responded much like mainstream media--is leading and controlling our grieving, and the decision of whether we grieve at all or not. For anyone to whom this has a ring of truth, I say this: It's okay to question your grief, your sorrow, and where it's coming from. Because letting outside forces control your grief means that they can control you in any other way they choose.

Now, the next question, is to not grieve someone else's loss different from capitalizing on it? Where's the line? Where's your line? The proper response would be...

For me, at least, it's not all as cut and dry as it seems.

To Shelley, I'm sorry for commenting on what were such beautiful tributes on your site. I know this is a deep loss for you because you believe in all that is space exploration, and because you have a deeper heart than you like to admit. I should have kept my insensitivity over here.

To Liz, I am sorry I fell short for you on this one. But I was being me. Am I passionate and dispassionate, sometimes at the same time? Am I as empathetic as I am brazen? Are there some things I don't care about with the same amount as my caring? You bet. And I still like and respect you, just so you know.

I've been described with a lot of favorable adjectives online. And I appreciate all of those. But don't paint me as a hero and expect me to fit in the frame. Save that honor for the Astronauts and other deserving recipients...

February 03, 2003

can you tell...

I'm gearing myself up for something big?

My 100 Reasons to Quit Smoking.

Disclaimer: This statement claims that the material in this weblog is a combination of fiction and non-fiction, and I'm the only one who knows which is which. If I were a smoker, I wouldn't talk about it with just any soul online. Not with b*ig b*rother watching.

1) The smell on me, clothes, car, stuff
2) Costs too much money
3) Takes time away from my daughter
4) Takes time away from my husband
5) I get sick too much
6) How can I tell my kid not to when it's time if I do
7) Painful lungs
8) Cough
9) I'm asthmatic, and even if you aren't, you probably will be
10) Lung cancer
11) Throat, mouth, and related cancers
12) Heart disease
13) It's digusting
14) No place to smoke at work
15) Smoking outside in the winter and the rain
16) Not being able to watch a whole movie without at least thinking about one
17) Not being able to go to the mall without stepping out for one
18) Yellowing of skin, fingernails
19) That little frown and wrinkles that come lots sooner on a smoker
20) Want to see my daughter grow up
21) Don't want to die on her
22) Want to grow old with my husband
23) Don't want surgery
24) In the humidity of summer, the smoke sticks to you
25) Hands won't get so dry if I'm not washing the smell off them all the time
26) Sinus infections and ear infections
27) Knowing that teachers, co-workers and boss can smell your habit.
28) It sucks being an addict
29) To learn to be able to say, No.
30) The Creator didn't put me here to kill myself
31) Sore throats
32) To be able to focus on just one thing--to live in the moment
33) To not always be "escaping"
34) More restful sleep
35) Less angst during air travel
36) No more having to ask at restaurants and then getting the worst table
37) No more lying to doctors
38) No more doctors
39) My daughter's school tuition
40) Vacations - money to go on them
41) Vacations - not always picking a 1st floor room so I can step out the door to smoke
42) Vacations - the long car ride to our destination, during which I can't smoke and therefore bitch a lot
43) Having to remember to get enough cigs to last the weekend.
44) Having to remember to take them with me everywhere I go
45) Tobacco all over the bottom of my purse
46) Freaking out when I don't have matches
47) Having to buy the fifth lighter in a month because I lost the other four
48) Smoking a hard-to-find brand like American Spirits means driving 5-10 miles for a pack
49) If Dave Winer can do it, I can
50) Don't want my daughter to have to push me around in a wheel chair with an oxygen tank
51) Bumming from others is embarassing
52) Self-esteem: get some
53) Fewer breaks from writing = more writing done sooner
54) To smell the wind outside my door instead of the smoke
55) My husband telling me not to drop the butts in the driveway
56) Dropping the butts in the driveway anyhow
57) My daughter staring at me when she catches me
58) Dread of the day she asks me, "What is that and what are you doing?"
59) Feeling like she's already figured it out and I'm a liar
60) Feeling like a criminal
61) Knowing I would resort to stealing them if I had to
62) Walking upstairs without breathing hard
63) More energy to work out, to care, to get inside the day
64) Wheezing
65) Prescription and non-prescription sinus medicine: costs and side effects
66) Wouldn't have to wash my coat so often - less money on water and laundry detergent in general
67) No worries about the cordless phone running out of batteries and having to cut calls short, because coming inside means no smoking
68) More money for phone bills to talk longer on regular phone
69) Blue Book value and resale potential of both cars would be better
70) To be able to complain about smokers, or at least feel sorry for them
71) Because I know it's wrong
72) Because I hate that it controls me
73) The lady I buy my cigarettes from has no front teeth
74) I hate giving money to tobacco company
75) RJ Reynolds just bought American Spirit--I'm giving my money to people I hate.
76) I'm giving my money to liars
77) Soon employers won't keep/hire you if you smoke
78) Some doctors won't even see you if you smoke
79) There are lots of new aides to help you quit
80) I've always felt better as a non smoker
81) I can get a good buzz off of coffee
82) I've quit before; I know I'm capable
83) I've stayed quit for years and know I'm capable
84) Losers won't take 20 cents off me every time I comply with their request to bum a smoke
85) Living
86) Dying
87) Being able to sit still for an hour
88) Not thinking of the next one before I finish the first
89) Not having to stash some away so I know I'll have them "just in case"
90) To be able to say, "I quit" and mean it
91) To be able to see a pack, or someone smoking, and not care
92) Those terrifying "oops! I smoked!" dreams don't last forever
93) To be able to tell others how I did it and maybe they'll decide to quit too
94) To be able to tell my husband how I did it and maybe he'll decide to quit too
95) To be able to reward myself with the new shoes I want
96) So that I can tell my daughter, in all honesty, it wasn't worth it
97) Because it's not my life to take
98) No more breath mints
99) Flicking my non-filter out the window and wondering if I'm going to blow up my gas tank
100) Because "It's Time."

i'm sick

And trying Zicam. Just saw it in the store tonight and it looks pretty for real. I'm assuming it's something to do with zinc, which has been proven to help with colds, but Zicam is a nasal gel which you kind of shoot/glob on the inside of each nostril, then pinch your nostrils for five seconds. You use it every 2-5 hours, then continue for 48 hours after symptoms get better. The research shows that people get better three times faster--colds are supposed to last just over two days instead of nine.

Consider me the human guinea pig. I'll let you know.

And um, how do you buy stock?

writing myself to sleep

When she woke up in the basement, it was the image of the buzzards circling over the bare-branched oak that greeted her.

She had no present moment, only recollections of things that mattered in the instant before she lost consciousness. But how? Who? Why was she face down on the cool cement?

She fought hard to remember, but the buzzards were all that came.

Her sides ached; this she knew. Somewhere on the back of her head, enormous pressure was building--was it pent up fear or a bloody gash waiting to explode?

And then the searing stripe of pain through her right ankle. Yes, I remember this, she thought, as she wiggled it gingerly hoping that the next movement would prove her wrong. Flash, more pain.

Why am I in the cellar, hurt, alone? Comeon, brain--she closed her eyes against the darkness and summoned her memory back.....

More later.

February 02, 2003

And then I'd hire everybody

And I'd pay us bloggers to do some kickass thing that would change everything--kind of what we're doing, but with money.

If I got a lump sum of money...

...you know, a good lump sum that helped pay off bills so creditors would stop calling, you know, THAT kind of sum, then one of the first things I'd do is shell out the $12 a piece it would take to buy the ads off the blogs I enjoy reading. Ray and David for starters...

usually don't do these, but felt the results of this one, well, speak for themselves...

(1292-1358) At first, Isabella was a perfect princess: accomplished, pretty, young, and the oldest daughter of the King of France. But an inept, uncaring, homosexual husband (edward ii) pushed Isabella a bit too far, and she led a rebellion with her lover against Edward II. When it succeeded in putting her son on the throne, the ungrateful child put her in prison for the rest of her life-- 28 years.

which edward ii-era historical figure are you?

this quiz was made by Caitlin

with a little digging and the help of google...

I found part of the chatroom log that chronicled Brandon Vedas' death via overdose while online with webcam and chat....


And, here:

[04:02] rippercam is up
[04:02] * grphish loves the cock!
[04:02] I got a grip of drugs
[04:02] show us ripper
[04:02] you want me to run my root off in ya boy
[04:02] ripper
[04:02] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:02] what do you have
[04:02] do u guys grow
[04:02] magical mushrooms
[04:02] magical mushrooms are defined as psilocybe XXxXX
[04:02] ?
[04:02] klonoz!
[04:03] tune in
[04:03] watch
[04:03] give us url
[04:03] rippercam
[04:03] rippercam is functioning
[04:03] amaze
[04:03] * felix is now known as theKat
[04:03] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:03] !rippercam
[04:03] forget rippercam
[04:03] grphish: I forgot rippercam
[04:03] ripper answer pm whore
[04:03] is sammi there?
[04:03] rippercam is http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:03] PUT A TOP ON
[04:03] u see that chat
[04:03] oh dear
[04:03] butt slu t
[04:04] thats a lot of klonopin
[04:04] heh
[04:04] along with shrooms or pot
[04:04] looks like ripper is fine enough in the nude
[04:04] whats that ur holding?
[04:04] heh
[04:04] shrooms!
[04:04] shrooms are inevitable.
[04:04] yay ripper!
[04:04] shrooms in Rx bottle
[04:04] ripper cam
[04:04] lol
[04:04] s
[04:04] whos that?
[04:04] that is real
[04:04] bagga weed
[04:04] methadone 80mg
[04:04] thats u ripper
[04:04] ?
[04:04] or
[04:04] whats that red shit
[04:04] haha
[04:04] i knew it
[04:04] haa
[04:04] you lucky fux0r
[04:05] AHHAA
[04:05] brandon?
[04:05] brandon is a good dood though
[04:05] whats those bottles?
[04:05] takea thousant!
[04:05] whats
[04:05] whats is he and she
[04:05] the fuckin bottles
[04:05] bottles is kind of coffin shaped too
[04:05] i DIDNT SEE
[04:06] ah
[04:06] is that bug ripper
[04:06] bud
[04:06] bud is a brand of beer as well as marijuana
[04:06] heh
[04:06] tonight is a ogod night fellas
[04:06] haha
[04:06] will u jerk it
[04:06] for me
[04:06] for me is is....i will explain
[04:06] so whaty do you have all together
[04:06] bud klono and methadone
[04:07] im just playin
[04:07] but whats in the bottles
[04:07] really
[04:07] really is there any place on the net that I can read where others have put brain power into devising ways to grow weed subversively?
[04:07] im not watching that shit anymore
[04:07] klono, methadone, restoril, inderal, weed, kb
[04:07] you need to shave your head
[04:07] kb?
[04:07] kind buds?
[04:07] yoda: methadone in bottles
[04:07] :p
[04:07] kind buds yes
[04:07] methadone
[04:07] methadone is easier on your nose than e
[04:07] u an ex heroin addict
[04:07] or hwaT?
[04:07] hwaT is the ring. . .?
[04:07] long story
[04:07] That usually means that the person doesn't want to talk about it.
[04:07] bottoms up fells
[04:07] check this shit
[04:07] hey ripper
[04:07] 8000mg equivalent of oxy-contin
[04:07] * gee_wiz has joined #shroomery
[04:07] Not a Care in Life
[04:08] * gee_wiz has left #shroomery
[04:08] haha
[04:08] i bet that tasted like shit
[04:08] brb drink
[04:08] a bottle of methadone is a dose of methadone?
[04:08] we see him knock his head on the back wall and stay there for the next 14 hours
[04:09] that little bottle is a dose?
[04:09] whao
[04:09] thats alot
[04:09] jesus
[04:09] Jesus healed the lame! With Cannabis Oil!!! http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/2633187.stm
[04:09] I just stumbled
[04:09] to the ktichen
[04:09] I'm all fucked up
[04:09] motherukc
[04:09] dude you just drank it
[04:09] attempted suicide #84
[04:09] did you smoke bud as well?
[04:09] yeah
[04:09] =P
[04:09] and
[04:09] ripper: how much methadone did you take?
[04:09] keep that respirator hady
[04:09] I'm gonna take some klonos
[04:09] watch
[04:09] hadny
[04:09] 80mg
[04:09] 80mg is alot of ritalin though
[04:09] handt
[04:09] pure
[04:09] pure is good yeah pure is good!
[04:10] hadndndyhdnahnaha ahdny handy
[04:10] how much is a regular dose?
[04:10] they start [eolpe who shoot at 20-30mg
[04:10] goodnight
[04:10] gang
[04:10] gang is believed to run five vans which all have curtains fitted behind the drivers seat and beds installed in the back.
[04:10] peace
[04:10] make baby cadavers
[04:10] out
[04:10] do you take this much nightly?
[04:10] much love
[04:10] <33333333
[04:10] byebyebyeybeybyebyeybe
[04:10] dont OD on us ripper
[04:10] firdt time with lwuid
[04:10] ufusls pillz
[04:10] so rhey are 5mg
[04:10] * yoda has quit IRC (Leaving: Leaving)
[04:10] did the methadone kick in aqlready
[04:11] or what.
[04:11] oh yeah
[04:11] I'm fcuk
[04:11] i wonder if we'll see ripper ever again
[04:11] hey ripper
[04:11] heh
[04:11] hey
[04:11] bonjour, ripper
[04:11] whatsup
[04:11] what are you on right now ripper
[04:11] yea what are you on
[04:11] aalot of drugs
[04:11] 80mg methadone
[04:11] 8mg klonopin
[04:11] 120mg resotril
[04:11] 1.5 grams KB
[04:11] 4 grams mersh
[04:11] mersh?
[04:11] mersh is east coast
[04:11] wtf
[04:12] 110 mg inderal
[04:12] hehe
[04:12] you're making drugs up!
[04:12] and
[04:12] lol
[04:12] whats mersh
[04:12] it has been said that mersh is east coast
[04:12] 2 vicodan
[04:12] dude
[04:12] you ever done this much before
[04:12] thats it
[04:12] eat more
[04:12] thats not much
[04:12] man. 2 vicodin would do me in
[04:12] don't overdose on us ripper :[
[04:12] I did this tonight
[04:12] u fools
[04:12] fools we will always be
[04:12] I eat that every morning
[04:12] did u not see my bag of drugs
[04:12] look
[04:12] * Pnutbot looks
[04:12] you pussy
[04:12] you pussy
[04:12] eat more
[04:12] haha Smoke2k stfu
[04:12] lol
[04:12] your fucking nuts ripper
[04:12] :)
[04:13] yeah
[04:13] thats what I thought bitch
[04:13] id take the methadone over all if that
[04:13] don't talk to me about doing enough drugs
[04:13] thats my pesonal stash
[04:13] tough love
[04:13] all the goods
[04:13] for a weekend of fun
[04:13] those benzos
[04:13] fuck yeah
[04:13] damn I am pretty sure that I would not be able more than the methadone and vicodan
[04:13] I solu eat 4 restoril
[04:13] one sec
[04:13] ripper
[04:13] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:13] solu?
[04:13] You sure your judgement isn't impared to the least?
[04:13] you're not going to overdose on us are you?
[04:13] what the hell is this new dialect your making up
[04:14] great
[04:14] bottosms up
[04:14] lol
[04:14] cheers and righty hoe
[04:14] hell yea eat more
[04:14] lol
[04:14] eat more
[04:14] you pussy
[04:14] you should get sammi over there
[04:14] lol
[04:14] wait
[04:14] wait is that legal?
[04:14] I havent taken inderal
[04:14] mmmmMM
[04:14] to get your ass to the hospital in an hour
[04:14] damn if you die you fucking bitch I am going to feel so bad
[04:14] yah you have
[04:14] eat more
[04:14] haha Smoke2k
[04:14] :)
[04:14] dude
[04:14] anyone knows rippers address?
[04:15] damn man ripper is a dumbass
[04:15] someone call the paramedics on him
[04:15] when you are making a new dialect up ripper you need to say you have had enough
[04:15] there we go
[04:15] I should be set
[04:15] I am immune to some pills but you know what I do I just don't buy them anymore
[04:15] Smoke2k, wait till the klonos vicodins and all the other pills he took kick in
[04:15] I suggest he just doesn't eat anymore
[04:15] these are good pillz u know
[04:15] ripper :]
[04:15] damn ripper your such a fucking cunt
[04:15] :)
[04:15] I am having a wonderful evening
[04:15] you ever done this much before?
[04:16] why am I a cunt
[04:16] this is usual weekend behaviour
[04:16] I told u fucks
[04:16] u all said I was lying
[04:16] haha
[04:16] how many have you eaten before
[04:16] lol
[04:16] we did?
[04:16] my mom is in the next room doing crozzwordz
[04:16] haha
[04:16] well
[04:16] yea you should go give her some
[04:16] she won't notice anyway
[04:16] offer her some pillz
[04:16] the methdone will kick your ass
[04:16] and make you pretty quiet
[04:17] your mom won't know that your crawling to bed?
[04:17] watcht this bitch
[04:17] yeah. if you do some meth
[04:17] 2 methadone
[04:17] lol
[04:17] lo,l
[04:17] you crazy sumbitch
[04:17] LOL
[04:17] you got a guitar Rippah?
[04:17] damn I gotta get this fucking web cam
[04:17] if ripper doesn't die he's going to have a great time
[04:17] gimme addy again
[04:17] hell yea
[04:17] damn ripper you gotta play us some tunes bro
[04:17] whoa
[04:17] whoa is right
[04:17] I am high
[04:17] Your IP has been logged and the police are on their way, better slam that ben and jerry's and haul some ass hippy
[04:17] fucking wail on that bitch
[04:17] fuck
[04:18] Ripper
[04:18] Ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:18] what are you on?
[04:18] ?!!!!!11
[04:18] hey whats addy
[04:18] i bet ripper will just pass out and forget it all
[04:18] hes on alot
[04:18] alot of drugs
[04:18] What?
[04:18] 80mg methadone
[04:18] 8mg klonopin
[04:18] 120mg resotril
[04:18] 1.5 grams KB
[04:18] 4 grams mersh
[04:18] 160mg methadone
[04:18] lol
[04:18] holy Shit
[04:18] 8mg klonopin
[04:18] * Pnutbot worships Oea's shit.
[04:18] 120mg rrestoril
[04:18] lolol
[04:18] ripper
[04:18] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:18] ur ded
[04:18] I just ate about 160mg inderal
[04:18] and
[04:18] we seen him eat alot
[04:18] I smoked 1.5 grams kb
[04:18] he said hes got a big tolerance
[04:18] and 5 grams normal pot
[04:18] and
[04:18] you better stay on web cam all night
[04:18] I drank some 151
[04:18] I wanna see if you survive or if you just black out
[04:19] * grphish eats nutmeg :(
[04:19] ripper
[04:19] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:19] this is more fun than a drunk on cops missing teeth wearing a wife beater
[04:19] don't die motherfucker
[04:19] i'll kill you
[04:19] man
[04:19] yea thats what I said Oea
[04:19] ripper, if you puke? can i eat it? i'll get so high of that puke
[04:19] * phalaris changes topic to ' 80mg methadone 8mg klonopin 120mg resotril 1.5 grams KB 4 grams mersh I just ate about 160mg inderal'
[04:19] I told him he was a pussy a minute ago as a joke and then he ate more
[04:19] hah
[04:19] that's a lot of downers
[04:19] I suppose
[04:19] lol
[04:19] you'd better not go to sleep
[04:19] breathe
[04:20] it's all going down
[04:20] how many people are watching this non=sense
[04:20] stay here mother fucker
[04:20] everyone here
[04:20] :/
[04:20] whats web site
[04:20] web site is Christiania.org
[04:20] I
[04:20] phalaris doesn't make sense.. no telling what makes sense these days...
[04:20] i need it
[04:20] i need it
[04:20] now
[04:20] What's the cam site?
[04:20] yea
[04:20] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:20] thx
[04:20] ripper .. you should try as best to pass out in front of the cam
[04:20] wtf is that
[04:20] that is real
[04:20] hehe
[04:21] there
[04:21] there is a make black and white under effects
[04:21] i hope ripper doens't die or anyhting :<
[04:21] thats the perfect position
[04:21] look
[04:21] * Pnutbot looks
[04:21] if I'm laying there
[04:21] see if you can see me
[04:21] ripper
[04:21] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:21] yah
[04:21] good
[04:21] code a dead man's trigger
[04:21] leave it like that
[04:21] if you don't respond in X time
[04:21] it warns us
[04:21] LOL
[04:21] haha
[04:21] AND, HE'S GONE!
[04:21] ehh
[04:21] lol
[04:21] [04:21] did you just flash us
[04:21] oh dear where'd you get the strength to get back up
[04:21] I got some more drugs here somewhere
[04:21] LIZZOLE
[04:21] gimme a sec
[04:21] lol
[04:21] no ripper
[04:21] no ripper is steady massaging my blue balls since I got turned down by the raging dyke
[04:22] LOL
[04:22] don't
[04:22] RIPPER
[04:22] RIPPER is a gangster!!!
[04:22] LMAO
[04:22] NO
[04:22] don't be a dick
[04:22] dude
[04:22] ripper
[04:22] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:22] I haven't finished going through my bag
[04:22] no more
[04:22] jese fucking christ
[04:22] CUT IT OUT
[04:22] just smoke some weed
[04:22] lol
[04:22] lol
[04:22] DUDE
[04:22] lol
[04:22] lol
[04:22] SDFJDS
[04:22] fucking eat it
[04:22] fucking eat it
[04:22] STOP IT
[04:22] fucking eat it
[04:22] lol
[04:22]  STOP IT
[04:22]  STOP IT
[04:22]  STOP IT
[04:22]  STOP IT
[04:22] :(
[04:22] ripper knows what hes doing
[04:22] dfkgjdfg
[04:22]  STOP IT i dont care, !
[04:22]  STOP IT i dont care, stop it :(
[04:22] LOL
[04:22] lol
[04:22] LOL
[04:22] LOL
[04:22] Ripper
[04:22] Ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:22] he knows he's attempting suicide for the umpteenth time
[04:22] lol
[04:22] nth
[04:23] loEL
[04:23] degree
[04:23] degree is ALT-248 °
[04:23] stop it :(()~
[04:23] stick the pillz up yer noz
[04:23] alright
[04:23] there we go
[04:23] ripper
[04:23] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:23] 8mg klonopin the mix
[04:23] do you want to die or what?
[04:23] !!!!
[04:23] nah
[04:23] its safe
[04:23] I know what I'm doing
[04:23] When you stop breathing!
[04:23] ok look dude
[04:23] heres the plan
[04:23] Respitory depressssion
[04:23] cram the pill up your ass
[04:23] listen
[04:23] your already numb
[04:23] loel
[04:24] the domain registration
[04:24] what did you just do ripper
[04:24] on my website
[04:24] on my website are a bunch links to erowid, shroomery, all that in my link ssection
[04:24] look if we pay pal you enough money will you do it
[04:24] if you call the police
[04:24] and tell them
[04:24] * phalaris changes topic to ' 80mg methadone 8mg klonopin 120mg resotril 1.5 grams KB 4 grams mersh I just ate about 160mg inderal 8mg klonopin the mix'
[04:24] to lookf or a AE92GTS corlla GTS from 90
[04:24] around that street block
[04:24] wtf?
[04:24] Willy The Fudgee-o
[04:24] they'll find it
[04:24] dude
[04:24] look dude fucking cram it up your ass
[04:24] thats crazy ya know
[04:24] don't eat it
[04:24] your already numb
[04:24] riipper
[04:24] do it
[04:24] cram it
[04:24] wha
[04:24] cram it up your ass
[04:24] don't eat it
[04:24] RIPPER
[04:24] RIPPER is a gangster!!!
[04:24] :((((
[04:24] I got laid earlier
[04:24] thats too stupid
[04:24] don't
[04:24] CALL 911
[04:24] :D
[04:24] the chick watned it on tape
[04:24] man don't die
[04:25] CALL 911
[04:25] she had a tight pussy
[04:25] :D
[04:25] cram it up your ass
[04:25] no rubs
[04:25] I fucked her hard
[04:25] Haven't you heard of "Rationing"
[04:25] she was swollen
[04:25] hey man
[04:25] fucking show us the porn
[04:25] phalaris make him not die :[
[04:25] no more drugs for now
[04:25] u guys getting good frma rate
[04:25] not unless your cramming it up your ass
[04:25] hey
[04:25] who's calling the cops when he passes out?
[04:25] call his mom
[04:26] Who is?
[04:26] I will call his mom
[04:26] okay
[04:26] cool
[04:26] I got a cell right ere
[04:26] here
[04:26] here is a view of my bed
[04:26] my mom is stupid thought
[04:26] actually
[04:26] gimme number you crazy fucks
[04:26] hrees my cell
[04:26] take some stims!
[04:26] in fase anything goe
[04:26] wrong
[04:26] my cell
[04:26] my cell is working again now, you have the #?
[04:26] yea go eat some crank
[04:26] heh
[04:26] (602)434-1016
[04:26] Smoke2k, you'er going to bed in a while
[04:26] k
[04:26] k is, like, better
[04:26] thats my cell
[04:26] call if I look dead
[04:26] no
[04:26] ok ay
[04:26] lol
[04:26] someone call him now and talk to his ass
[04:27] alright
[04:27] * hast has joined #shroomery
[04:27] talking could be good
[04:27] ripper
[04:27] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:27] lets get hast to call him
[04:27] I'm getting kinda board
[04:27] if you DIE
[04:27] ayo
[04:27] I get free LD
[04:27] i am
[04:27] hast
[04:27] hast is having cosmic revelations.
[04:27] :)
[04:27] who wwants to talk
[04:27] call ripper
[04:27] he is dying
[04:27] what's wrong with him
[04:27] he took mega pills
[04:27] look at topic
[04:27] topic
[04:27] topic is good
[04:27] ^^
[04:27] 1,8(4,8o1,8^_^4,8o1,8)
[04:27] plus the 130mg inderol
[04:27] and the 8mg klonopin
[04:28] well
[04:28] the way i see it
[04:28] the way i see it is that you put a person (your child) into a situation (life) without their consent. it is therefore you who are obligated to the child, rather than the other way around
[04:28] dude
[04:28] he's got two options
[04:28] look at him
[04:28] get his stomach pumped
[04:28] 130 + 160 ?
[04:28] 290
[04:28] what is he doing
[04:28] or die
[04:28] talking isn't giong to do shit
[04:28] LOL
[04:28] rippercam
[04:28] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:28] he's dead
[04:28] happy trails
[04:28] he's on the phone with someone
[04:28] RIPPER
[04:28] RIPPER is a gangster!!!
[04:28] come on man
[04:28] call the cops
[04:28] dude
[04:28] am talking to smoke
[04:28] don't make me tape this video stream and ebay it later
[04:28] everyting is ok
[04:29] smoke will report
[04:29] that would own
[04:29] how slurred is his speach?
[04:29] ripper
[04:29] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:29] just call 911
[04:29] hes so slurred
[04:29] and tell them you took a whole lot of pills
[04:29] haha
[04:29] they'll fix you up
[04:29] >:(
[04:29] RIPPER
[04:29] RIPPER is a gangster!!!
[04:29] IF YOU DIE
[04:29] or
[04:29] I SWEAR TO GOD!
[04:29] go crack some raw eggs
[04:30] and slurp them down
[04:30] until you puke
[04:30] haha
[04:30] yeah dude
[04:30] induce vomiting
[04:30] * phalaris changes topic to ' 80mg methadone 8mg klonopin 120mg resotril 1.5 grams KB 4 grams mersh I just ate about 160mg inderal I drank some 151 8mg klonopin the mix'
[04:30] that's a really good idea
[04:30] whats 151?
[04:30] 151 is always a blast
[04:30] Ripper
[04:30] Ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:30] Go puke dude
[04:30] oh
[04:30] whats 151?
[04:30] rumour has it 151 is always a blast
[04:30] whats 151?
[04:30] 151 is always a blast
[04:30] please!
[04:30] bacardi 151
[04:30] 151 proof liquor
[04:30] OMG
[04:30] LOL
[04:30] !
[04:30] proof
[04:30] proof is that we outlive our teeth
[04:31] ahaha
[04:31] dude
[04:31] thats a lo of proof!
[04:31] heh
[04:31] 151 / 2
[04:31] 75.5
[04:31] where's he at
[04:31] he is waiting for his friend who obviously has a problem
[04:31] hes alive
[04:31] i mean geographically
[04:31] he's at a one man brothel
[04:31] and tellin me about cam
[04:31] Smoke2k, the pills take a while to kick in dude
[04:31] Dude
[04:31] Once wave 2 kicks in
[04:31] hm
[04:31] where
[04:31] he's gone
[04:31] is
[04:31] he
[04:31] he is a homo
[04:31] at
[04:31] smoke
[04:31] rumour has it smoke is fine
[04:32] his domain
[04:32] whois is
[04:32] k
[04:32] k is better
[04:32] what is it
[04:32] kolonopinz.com
[04:32] or something
[04:32] better than nothing
[04:32] rippercam
[04:32] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:32] :()
[04:32] Administrative Contact:
[04:32] Get Ripped Productions
[04:32] B Ripper
[04:32] 2000 W. Village Dr.
[04:32] Phoenix, AZ 85023
[04:32] US
[04:32] US is a nasty customer too.
[04:32] (602)555-1234
[04:32] 6604@whois.gkg.net
[04:32] shi
[04:32] oh
[04:32] that numbenr is fake
[04:32] you're in pheonix
[04:32] so here's what you do
[04:32] call the pheonix police
[04:32] tell them what's going on
[04:32] and that's that
[04:33] call the hospital
[04:33] How do they know where to find him?
[04:33] i'm damn sure not getting involved with the authorities
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[04:33] noone is hast :(
[04:33] Stay anonymous
[04:33] heh
[04:33] opdivert
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[04:33] S[04:33] Smoke2k
[04:33] are you on the phoen with him?
[04:33] hey]
[04:33] yea\
[04:33] Is he still okay/
[04:33] uhuh
[04:33] hmm
[04:33] i duno
[04:34] after reading that again
[04:34] thats a lot of pills
[04:34] but
[04:34] Heh
[04:34] hes tellin about motel
[04:34] i don't think it's lethal
[04:34] besides
[04:34] * spiritualnexus has joined #shroomery
[04:34] ripper is a kolono crackhead
[04:34] respitory depression
[04:34] he has a tolerance
[04:34] yeah
[04:34] hey
[04:34] that's true
[04:34] glad to see there are people in this room
[04:34] i think he'll be fine.
[04:34] well
[04:34] justtalk to him
[04:34] going to sleep is bad
[04:34] hast, lots of methadone, and alhcohol and .. klonopinz
[04:34] ya
[04:34] its porbably going to be hard not to fall asleep
[04:35] heh
[04:35] yes
[04:35] has anyone here have tried Salvia Divinorum?
[04:35] lol
[04:35] what would the shroomery backbone be without ripper
[04:35] Someone has to stay on the phone with him
[04:35] I have
[04:35] did you have a nice experience?
[04:35] yeah
[04:35] it's almost as good as nicotine extract
[04:35] hmm... can't say it was incredibly possitive
[04:35] you should try it
[04:35] most of us have tryed salvia
[04:35] had a lot of tinlging that distracted me
[04:35] um
[04:35] you know how to smoke it right?
[04:36] you're not gonna try smoke it in a joint or something
[04:36] hey
[04:36] what's up, hast
[04:36] i don't want to sound like the insensitive ass here
[04:36] but what exactly is ativan
[04:36] hes here
[04:36] ativan?
[04:36] somebody said ativan was not a benzo
[04:36] is a micro torch necessary absolutely?
[04:36] yes
[04:36] well yah heh
[04:36] he is eating
[04:36] good
[04:37] hmm... i laughed a little on it
[04:37] food will
[04:37] g
[04:37] Grams
[04:37] and cried a little on it...
[04:37] did you poo your pants ?
[04:37] !erowid ativan
[04:37] http://www.erowid.org/cgi-bin/search/htsearch.cgi?config=&words=12ativan
[04:37] hast , try http://www.erowid.org/cgi-bin/search/htsearch.cgi?words=ativan
[04:37] do any of you know any drugs/meds for Intrusive thoughts, or OCD?
[04:37] calming thoughts
[04:37] meditation
[04:37] meditation is, like, strange
[04:37] and good social awareness
[04:38] it's a true behavioral fluke that needs some attention
[04:38] i don't think these pills are ativans
[04:38] not passifiction
[04:38] is there a place where you can look up pills by the inscriptions on them?
[04:38] rxlist
[04:38] rxlist is my special friend
[04:39] i think
[04:39] you can search by pill number
[04:39] i tried there already
[04:39] oh
[04:39] oh
[04:39] really?
[04:39] really is there any place on the net that I can read where others have put brain power into devising ways to grow weed subversively?
[04:39] i just used the generic search
[04:39] i think
[04:39] how much bread should he eat?
[04:39] ripper needs a PS2 now
[04:40] yah heh
[04:40] and a puking session
[04:40] he'd probably end up eating his puke though
[04:40] id eat his puke
[04:40] its gonna have amny shit in there
[04:40] you'd die on his puke
[04:41] i can probably make like a 2 day stash from his puke
[04:41] yah hah
[04:41] id gelcap it
[04:41] hehe
[04:41] RipperPukeZ
[04:41] 20mg
[04:41] 20mg is enough for me
[04:41] eat a whole loaf
[04:41] haha
[04:41] well
[04:41] is it smart
[04:41] get him some ipeacac
[04:41] hes straight fucked
[04:41] are you still talking to him?
[04:41] he sounds like he is 12
[04:42] heh
[04:42] should he
[04:42] haha thats the pot :D
[04:42] he should have just sticked to the methadone thing
[04:43] that doesn't sound enough for someone who cooks his own KlonoKrak
[04:43] he is not discontinuing eating bread to smoke pot until he has a answer
[04:43] no
[04:43] ug?
[04:43] ug is micrograms. the u is supposed to be the greek letter mu, lower case.
[04:43] what he needs to do
[04:43] is call a fucking doctor
[04:43] some shit
[04:43] some shit is just poison
[04:43] if partially digested
[04:43] lol
[04:43] can fuck you up worse if you puke
[04:43] damn
[04:43] haven't you ever seen the rx bottles
[04:43] that say
[04:43] yh
[04:43] well I am talking
[04:43] cause
[04:44] I will tell him whatever
[04:44] i mean dont get me wrong
[04:44] hast is right actually
[04:44] what do yall suggest
[04:44] if its between that and death
[04:44] and hes not gona call the authorities
[04:44] wharf it up
[04:44] better than taking a chance
[04:44] I think that has to do with eating an acid or poison
[04:44] hey fuys
[04:44] look
[04:44] better yet
[04:44] * Pnutbot looks
[04:44] do this
[04:44] call poison control
[04:44] you shoudl nutralize it with milk
[04:44] they'll tell you what to do
[04:44] yah
[04:44] and they wont sent cops
[04:44] call poison control, they wont send authoritis and shit
[04:44] they'll just help you
[04:44] any of you could call poison control
[04:44] someone fnd the number
[04:44] i cant because i'm twacked out of my mind
[04:45] lol
[04:45] lol
[04:45] lol
[04:45] lol
[04:45] lol
[04:45] alrgiht
[04:45] lol
[04:45] '24mg klonopin
[04:45] ok
[04:45] tonight is a good night
[04:45] lol
[04:45] Someone
[04:45] Someone is gonan break soe shit
[04:45] Give me a list
[04:45] of all he's done
[04:45] in a PM
[04:45] and i'll call poison control
[04:45] the first 8mg hasn't kick in yet
[04:45] damn
[04:45] and you took another 8mg
[04:45] * phalaris changes topic to ' 80mg methadone 8mg klonopin 120mg resotril 1.5 grams KB 4 grams mersh I just ate about 160mg inderal I drank some 151 8mg klonopin the mix '24mg klonopin'
[04:45] he is slurred and very coherent
[04:45] well ripper
[04:45] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:46] just because 8mg is okay alone mixing it makes it mre potent
[04:46] and has more risks
[04:46] dude
[04:46] lol
[04:46] yeah ripper
[04:46] they'll think it's a prank
[04:46] step 1 might be to STOP EATING the shit
[04:46] that would be neat to see him mixing up psychedelics
[04:46] yeah, and from what i understand everyone thought pnut's suicide threat was a joke too
[04:46] i was JUST thiking about that phalaris
[04:46] He says you can suck his dick Oea
[04:47] haha
[04:47] ??
[04:47] he is going to drink another bottle of methadone I think
[04:47] lol
[04:47] LOL
[04:47] wtf?
[04:47] Willy The Fudgee-o
[04:47] JSD
[04:47] NO
[04:47] DUDE
[04:47] look
[04:47] * Pnutbot looks
[04:47] NO
[04:47] ripper is fakking hardcore
[04:47] llook
[04:47] he has to
[04:47] 400mcg LSD 2 grams mesc 100mg 5Meo DMT 8 grams shrooms
[04:47] haha hast is meth^m
[04:47] other people cannot handle
[04:47] yeah
[04:47] i'd call up poison control
[04:47] jesus
[04:47] Jesus healed the lame! With Cannabis Oil!!! http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/2633187.stm
[04:47] i ahve before
[04:47] whoa
[04:47] whoa is right
[04:48] thatsa lot
[04:48] but
[04:48] 320mg methadone
[04:48] jesus
[04:48] Jesus healed the lame! With Cannabis Oil!!! http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/2633187.stm
[04:48] ripper: did you drink mre methadone?
[04:48] ripper is either hardcore or ungodly or crazy or one hell of a poser
[04:48] man .. alcohol gives me enough of a buzz
[04:48] dude 80mg is more than enough
[04:48] me too phalaris
[04:48] he R not posOr
[04:48] if he is telling the truth
[04:48] he is dead
[04:48] heh
[04:48] the opiates should do you in
[04:48] when you do alot of methadone your supposed to keep it hot right
[04:48] yeah
[04:48] I took
[04:48] thats what he is asking
[04:48] 4 80mg bottles
[04:49] fgh
[04:49] h
[04:49] h is too addictive.. so always stayed clear of it
[04:49] dfh;'dfkhrf
[04:49] putting benzos into it doesn't seem to change anything
[04:49] he's gone
[04:49] pls all the other stuff
[04:49] ripper
[04:49] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:49] i really love you man
[04:49] ripper
[04:49] ripper is a gangster!!!
[04:49] i love you
[04:49] its sad to see you die like this
[04:49] :(
[04:49] byeb ye
[04:49] NOW
[04:49] I told u I was hardcore
[04:49] ripper: we knew that already
[04:49] fuck u
[04:49] pusys
[04:49] u are so fucking stupid
[04:50] we're not the ones about to fucking die
[04:50] heh
[04:50] we are?
[04:50] The coolest mutha funkaz on the planet
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[04:50] aaha pnut
[04:50] all this movement
[04:50] howdy
[04:50] P
[04:50] P is for poop!
[04:50] O
[04:50] O
[04:50] S
[04:50] rippercam
[04:50] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:50] you'd think the body would purge
[04:50] I
[04:50] E
[04:50] E is better than alcohol
[04:50] S
[04:50] purge?
[04:50] purge is not needed
[04:50] puke
[04:50] puke is good.
[04:51] oh
[04:51] forget puke
[04:51] grphish: I forgot puke
[04:51] all those downers?
[04:51] damn
[04:51] i don't think he has the strength to puke
[04:51] heh
[04:51] he swears he is not goin to pass out
[04:51] he thinks you are a pussy for thinking he has no strength now
[04:51] Smoke2k, wait till the drugs really kick in
[04:51] i just got a bag o' shroomz, now i was just wondering what's the nonwasteful best way to eat them
[04:51] or whatever
[04:51] with your mouth?
[04:51] strength in taking an overdose
[04:52] poison control is 1-800-222-1222
[04:52] isn't it physically impossible to not pass out
[04:52] poison control
[04:52] poison control is on the fucking line!@
[04:52] poison control
[04:52] poison control is on the fucking line!@
[04:52] poison control
[04:52] poison control is on the fucking line!@
[04:52] :(
[04:52] heh
[04:52] MOUTH
[04:52] rumour has it MOUTH is great too
[04:52] forget poison control
[04:52] grphish: I forgot poison control
[04:52] poison control is 1-800-222-1222
[04:52] poison control
[04:52] 1-800-222-1222
[04:52] i'll tell you what he needs
[04:52] a nice harsh stimulant
[04:53] come on over ripper
[04:53] yeah
[04:53] I wonder if ripper is numb now
[04:53] i'll line you up a nice fat line
[04:53] you definately won't be passing out
[04:53] phalaris, 360mg of methadone will do that to you .
[04:53] he cann't figure out how to dial my home phone number
[04:53] he is tore
[04:53] wait I think he should have been from the first drug he took
[04:53] lol
[04:53] Smoke2k
[04:53] you not on the phone with him
[04:53] anymore?
[04:53] rumour has it anymore is a nice place
[04:53] i know what they'll tell you
[04:53] man... the need to get higher....
[04:53] they'll tell you to call the police
[04:53] or the hospital
[04:53] the hospital is the world of medicine
[04:53] someone needs to call him
[04:53] rippercam
[04:53] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:53] rippercam
[04:53] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:53] rippercam
[04:53] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:54] he's gone
[04:54] hes fuckin not responding
[04:54] iht
[04:54] walls keep shiftionmg
[04:54] @!
[04:54] @ is a character.
[04:54] he's passed out
[04:54] look at the cam
[04:54] look
[04:54] * Pnutbot looks
[04:54] rippercam
[04:54] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:54] rippercam
[04:54] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:54] nice leopard skin shits
[04:54] comeone call
[04:54] someone call someone
[04:54] shit
[04:54] shit is going to hit the fan soon
[04:54] sheets
[04:54] sheets are like 350
[04:54] looks like his mouth is moving
[04:55] i am talking to him
[04:55] he moved
[04:55] he moved
[04:55] lol
[04:55] how long ago was all this btw
[04:55] Ripper: get up and move around!
[04:55] around 20 minutes?
[04:55] ohboy
[04:55] around 20 minutes?
[04:55] heh
[04:55] ./notice him
[04:55] dude
[04:55] the klonopins haven't even
[04:55] it makes sound
[04:55] starter
[04:55] nothing is digested yet
[04:55] yet
[04:55] started
[04:55] go toss your cookies
[04:55] klonopiuns last ALL DAY
[04:55] unless of course you want to die
[04:55] hast, he was already fucked up from before.
[04:55] oh
[04:55] i'm talking to him
[04:56] and he's laying on the bed
[04:56] effectively pissing into the wind
[04:56] smoke
[04:56] smoke is fine
[04:56] he better go puke
[04:56] i am trying to talk him into dancing for us
[04:56] i say you call the cops
[04:56] fuck
[04:56] give them his number
[04:56] lO
[04:56] Ll
[04:56] and send them over
[04:56] he's using a cel phone
[04:56] oh
[04:56] they can't trace it
[04:56] he fuckin won't respond
[04:56] what the fuck
[04:56] heuy
[04:56] he told us hw to find him
[04:56] CALL
[04:56] one second
[04:56] hy
[04:56] http://www.shroomery.org/forums/files/102702-5/3596-kumi55.gif
[04:56] SOMEONE
[04:56] SOMEONE is gonan break soe shit
[04:56] its up there
[04:56] He said
[04:56] WHOIS
[04:57] prepare to evacuate soul
[04:57] rippercam
[04:57] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[04:57] i guess KLONOPINZ.COM is gonna rock
[04:57] WHOIS IS
[04:57] lolol
[04:57] they alerady did
[04:57] oh
[04:57] nobody ever lists real info there
[04:57] smoke2k
[04:57] try to get us
[04:57] !domain klonopinz.com
[04:57] his real address
[04:57]  klonopinz.com  Registrant: Get Ripped Productions B Ripper 2000 W. Village Dr. Phoenix, AZ 85023 US (602)555-1234 6604@whois.gkg.net
[04:57]  klonopinz.com  Administrative Contact: Get Ripped Productions B Ripper 2000 W. Village Dr. Phoenix, AZ 85023 US (602)555-1234 6604@whois.gkg.net
[04:57]  klonopinz.com 
[04:57] klonopinz.com is gonna rock
[04:57] what's a good recipe??
[04:57] smoke2k
[04:57] try to get us
[04:57] smoke2k
[04:57] his real address
[04:57] you know
[04:57] who needs to be involved here
[04:57] is a server admin
[04:57] who can get his ip
[04:57] why
[04:58] the ip won''t help
[04:58] yes it will
[04:58] how?
[04:58] they can totally traceroute an ip
[04:58] yes
[04:58] i guess it'd probably take a while though
[04:58] but that only fives you to his isp
[04:58] nobody will be around
[04:58] if it was only 20 minutes ago
[04:58] unless it's a big isp
[04:58] the shit isnt kicking in yet
[04:58] did he smoke the kolono
[04:58] what is kolonocrack?
[04:58] freebase klonopin?
[04:58] i guess
[04:58] guessing is not a good idea
[04:58] wtf
[04:58] Willy The Fudgee-o
[04:59] heh.. poor ripper
[04:59] freebasing benzos?
[04:59] he's got #shroomery in a scuffle
[04:59] yah :(
[04:59] im all sad
[04:59] * phalaris has quit IRC (Leaving: those who truely get high never come back...)
[04:59] hes talking on the phone
[04:59] oh look he isn't dead
[04:59] how bout that
[04:59] yay
[04:59] my last bit of advice is
[04:59] riiper
[04:59] if you don't want to call the hospital
[04:59] toss your cookies
[04:59] hows it hanging/
[05:00] toss your cookies?
[05:00] i really don't know anything about anything you took
[05:00] i'd strongly suggest calling the hospital
[05:00] but if you're not going to
[05:00] barf
[05:00] but
[05:00] as far as my knowledge goes
[05:00] that might not even be a lethal dose
[05:00] barfing might now be a good idea
[05:00] yah
[05:00] well
[05:00] the copmbination though
[05:00] ya
[05:00] eh
[05:00] itll suck
[05:00] dont get me wrong
[05:00] but
[05:00] 360mg methadone would do you in
[05:01] wtf
[05:01] Willy The Fudgee-o
[05:01] heh
[05:01] he didnt eat 360mg of methadone
[05:01] yes
[05:01] he did
[05:01] he is settin me a vpn up
[05:01] 4 80mg bottles
[05:01] oh
[05:01] heh
[05:01] He's gone
[05:01] hes fuckin crazy
[05:01] you better hope he's lying
[05:01] 3.4g methadone
[05:01] yeah
[05:01] im hoping he is
[05:01] is enough to kill kurt cobain
[05:02] 3.4g > 360mg
[05:02] heh
[05:02] er
[05:02] er is for pussy
[05:02] rofl
[05:02] whatever dude
[05:02] you mean
[05:02] im not sitting here flipping my fuckin wig
[05:02] 340mg
[05:02] LOL
[05:02] call the hospital
[05:02] thats that
[05:02] i'm out
[05:02] * hast has quit IRC (Leaving: good luck)
[05:02] hast is on crank
[05:02] he's gone i tell you
[05:02] yeah
[05:02] Hey
[05:02] If ripper dies
[05:02] i got tabs
[05:02] on hsi drugs
[05:03] hes makin vpn
[05:03] if there's any lef
[05:03] t
[05:03] for what?
[05:03] * spiritualnexus has left #shroomery (www.Darker.net - Dare Thee Expose Thy Darker Side?)
[05:03] a vpn to do.....?
[05:03] for my personal benefit
[05:03] Get his address
[05:03] hey chat with me grphish
[05:03] msg me
[05:03] pm
[05:03] Someone has a crush on you
[05:04] ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~shoa
[05:04] I'm fukcin
[05:04] ripper
[05:04] ripper is a gangster!!!
[05:04] are you alright?
[05:04] ??
[05:05] yea
[05:05] :)
[05:05] hes on phone
[05:06] well or not
[05:06] hes severely fucked up I guess but coherent enough to do computer tasks
[05:06] ?
[05:06] he ceases to amaze me
[05:06] he can't talk?
[05:07] I don't know he just mumbled into phone something like fuck that and hung up
[05:07] but he was working on vpn
[05:07] I guess lol
[05:07] he hung up??
[05:07] hes prolly goin to black out again or something
[05:07] uhh
[05:07] if he blacks out
[05:07] he is gone
[05:07] u kno dis?
[05:07] he will cease to breath autonomically
[05:08] what does he list his last name as?
[05:08] uh
[05:08] is ripper dead?
[05:08] yeah
[05:08] just about
[05:09] CALL
[05:09] THE
[05:09] a piece of shit
[05:09] almost
[05:09] FUCKING
[05:09] :((((
[05:09] COPS
[05:09] COPS are blind followers
[05:09] NO
[05:09] poison control
[05:09] 1-800-222-1222
[05:09] poison control
[05:09] 1-800-222-1222
[05:09] poison control
[05:09] 1-800-222-1222
[05:09] poison control
[05:09] 1-800-222-1222
[05:09] NOW
[05:09] no
[05:09] wait
[05:09] wait is that legal?
[05:09] what did yall put his last name as
[05:09] I will fucking verify it
[05:10] I got brandon something with a v for his last name
[05:10] maybe its true
[05:10] You guys
[05:10] You guys are right
[05:10] fuck
[05:10] what about his phone
[05:10] was it a cell
[05:10] yah
[05:10] He is moving :D
[05:10] The s.c. LD50 in rats is 44 mg for methadone
[05:10] he has a webcam?
[05:10] can i see?
[05:10] rippercam
[05:10] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[05:10] rippercam
[05:10] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[05:11] call him
[05:11] call him
[05:11] fuck that
[05:11] I am tired and about to get off
[05:11] it's the same image every time
[05:12] he left
[05:12] jap
[05:12] vegan
[05:12] he took 360mg of methadone
[05:12] (602)434-1016
[05:12] (602)434-1016v
[05:12] there he is
[05:12] ripper
[05:12] ripper is a gangster!!!
[05:12] whats up
[05:12] Brandon Vitas
[05:12] I think
[05:13] ???
[05:13] yea
[05:13] whitepages
[05:13] well if he really is fucked then you need to call his mom
[05:13] no poison control
[05:13] is he stuck
[05:13] and if he is bullshitting
[05:13] then it will teach him a lesson and embarrass the fuck out of him
[05:13] :)
[05:13] just wait
[05:13] someone call him
[05:13] I have been trying
[05:13] leave him alone
[05:13] his phone is off
[05:14] hes fine
[05:14] I think it died
[05:14] get on yahoo his name is klonopinz
[05:14] see if he is cool
[05:14] !domain klonopinz.com
[05:14]  klonopinz.com 
[05:14] i heard klonopinz.com was gonna rock
[05:14] !whois klonopinz.com
[05:14] !help
[05:15] domain klonopinz.com
[05:15] !Molokobot
[05:15] Oea - Try these: !google !images !groups !alt.drugs !csp !mapquest !topozone
[05:15] These: !rxlist !imprint !pills !pillcity !pillchem !tabers !websters !thesaurus !news
[05:15] Or These: !erowid !domain !ebay !ebay.nl !imdb !lasturl !forex !fxchart !ascii !weird !slang !spores
[05:15] !domain klonopinz.com
[05:15]  klonopinz.com  Registrant: Get Ripped Productions B Ripper 2000 W. Village Dr. Phoenix, AZ 85023 US (602)555-1234 6604@whois.gkg.net
[05:15]  klonopinz.com  Administrative Contact: Get Ripped Productions B Ripper 2000 W. Village Dr. Phoenix, AZ 85023 US (602)555-1234 6604@whois.gkg.net
[05:15]  klonopinz.com 
[05:15] klonopinz.com is gonna rock
[05:15] Hmm
[05:15] Why is he just sitting there
[05:15] holding his head
[05:15] why not
[05:15] ??
[05:15] dude
[05:16] what r hsi lastr name
[05:16] i think he stopped the camera
[05:16] who the fuck has a 1234 number
[05:16] no one
[05:16] no one is worthy
[05:16] thats bullshit
[05:16] well I guess he might be alive he might not
[05:16] did you check yahoo?
[05:16] he's gone
[05:17] i sent him a message
[05:17] Klonopinz?
[05:17] Klonopinz is such a cool host
[05:17] yea
[05:17] well man I am fucking tired
[05:17] he's not responding
[05:17] its been fun watching this stunt
[05:18] I suggest you call poison control on his ass
[05:18] thats fucking crazy what he did
[05:18] Uhh
[05:18] Wt
[05:18] f
[05:18] fahrenheit !
[05:18] How?
[05:18] I have no info on him
[05:18] he swore he didn't pass out
[05:18] but he did
[05:18] well tell them his moms cell
[05:18] why would he stop the cam?
[05:18] they can some how trace it or something
[05:18] No
[05:18] they can't!
[05:18] !!!
[05:18] i need his las name
[05:19] (602)434-1016
[05:19] fine
[05:19] i will call the phone company
[05:19] what provider is it?
[05:19] no dude
[05:19] the hospital is the world of medicine
[05:19] i will tell them i need her info
[05:19] stat
[05:19] stat is NURse GEt Me THat haMMer!
[05:19] WTF
[05:19] Willy The Fudgee-o
[05:19] they wont iver it to u
[05:19] poison control
[05:19] 1-800-222-1222
[05:19] Ripper you fuck, if you are joking
[05:19] fuck you
[05:19] i cam calling poison control
[05:19] good
[05:20] that dumb fuck is going to die
[05:20] he just passed out awhile ago
[05:20] he prolly just did it again
[05:20] I hope he gets mad cause this is a stunt worthy of us helping him if it isn't
[05:20] 360 mg of methadone
[05:20] will kill him right there
[05:20] either way he is a idiot in my opinion
[05:21] dont
[05:21] do
[05:21] do is such a futuuuristic word
[05:21] it
[05:21] Oea what is poison control saying
[05:21] what if he dies
[05:21] ong
[05:21] they said
[05:21] call 911 right now
[05:21] and he is almost assured dead
[05:21] if we dont'
[05:21] heh
[05:21] wtf
[05:21] Willy The Fudgee-o
[05:21] lol
[05:21] wtf
[05:21] Willy The Fudgee-o
[05:21] Where does he live?
[05:21] wjhat city?
[05:21] damn this is insane
[05:21] WHAT CITY?
[05:21] * Pnutbot wants to move to these towns! http://www.lifeisajoke.com/miscellaneous57_html.htm
[05:21] if this is a joke
[05:22] fucking phoenix i am pretty sure
[05:22] i swear
[05:22] okay
[05:22] might not want to do that
[05:22] but then again I don't know
[05:22] he might just be fucked up and not have stuff straight
[05:22] you could really fucking get him arrested
[05:22] damn this is hard call
[05:22] yall make it
[05:22] good night
[05:22] * Smoke2k has quit IRC (Leaving: )
[05:23] i am on line with 911
[05:23] is this the right choice?
[05:23] NO
[05:23] ??
[05:23] mayb
[05:23] probably is
[05:23] just tell him for help
[05:23] or somehting
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] NO
[05:24] lolol
[05:24] okay
[05:24] i talked my way out of it
[05:24] didn't give them any info
[05:24] But the Kay
[05:24] fuck it...
[05:24] whatever
[05:24] 360mg is a LETHAL OVERDOSE
[05:24] just so you know
[05:24] they siad there's nothing they can do
[05:24] with just a cell phon enumber
[05:29] * pjs has joined #shroomery
[05:29] * ChanServ sets mode: +o pjs
[05:29] .....
[05:30] heh
[05:30] RIP ripper
[05:30] :[
[05:32] rippercam
[05:32] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[05:37] * hast has joined #shroomery
[05:42] eh
[05:42] webcam
[05:42] i heard webcam was almost up
[05:42] hm
[05:42] konopincam
[05:42] what was that cam again
[05:42] hey ripper
[05:42] what's the url to your cam
[05:42] your cam is hosted by my machine
[05:42] lol
[05:43] it's off
[05:43] the cam is off
[05:44] he's gone
[05:44] heleft?
[05:44] no
[05:44] he stopped responding
[05:44] no responce on cell
[05:44] yahoo
[05:44] yahoo is slow
[05:44] irc
[05:44] It's the ultmate 1950s science fiction horror scenario: "IN THE FUTURE, PEOPLE WILL SIT AROUND ALL DAY WATCHING TELEVISION AND PRESSING BUTTONS"
[05:45] did anyone call poison control
[05:45] i went to eat and now im back
[05:46] * Dell500 has quit IRC (Leaving: )
[05:47] yeah
[05:47] they (and 911) said there's nothing they can do
[05:47] with just the cell #
[05:48] ripper cam
[05:48] :(
[05:48] rippercam
[05:48] http://www.klonopinz.com/webcam.html
[05:48] those who trully get high, never come back
[05:48] :(
[05:48] you will never know if he died unless he get back on here
[05:49] i know
[05:49] thats kinda freaky
[05:49] yeah
[05:49] oh well
[05:49] then all the logs get to be analyzed
[05:49] * daba has joined #shroomery
[05:49] and we all get to be investigated
[05:49] hello
[05:50] anyone awake?
[05:50] yes
[05:50] oh shit
[05:50] shit is going to hit the fan soon
[05:50] you're rifght

Holy shit. A study in the psychology and behavior of a virtual mob? A tragic death? A stupid reckless punk? Or just bunch of kids on drugs?

Chat to Death

A 21-year old Phoenix kid committed virtual and realworld suicide by ODing while chat room friends looked on via his webcam. Brandon Vedas is dead, and according to the story, at least some of the chat room participants were encouraging him to take more pills, and they watched as he died. Brandon Vedas was part of a trend that sees young people abusing prescription narcotics.

"...the technology that brought as many as a dozen chatters into the intimacy of Vedas' bedroom was unable to tell them where he was. Internet Relay Chat is anonymous, and no one in the drug users' chat group knew the last name of the young man who called himself Ripper."

One chatroom participant wrote, "That's not much," said a teenager from rural Oklahoma who calls himself Smoke2K. "Eat more. I wanna see if you survive or if you just black out."


Vedas' mother was in the next room. She found him the next day at 1 p.m. He was dead. His computer was locked, and it took more than a week for anyone to find out the event had been witnessed, and partially at least encouraged, via webcam.

Coming of Age

...For Chaplin and Chutney


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