Running Out of Rhyme
Poetry by Jeneane Sessum
In case anyone thought I was serious about pulling content behind a pay-per-view model, I thought I'd make a clear stand on what I think we should be doing here by giving and receiving one another's voices.
So here's the next Running Out of Rhyme poetry collection as a PDF.
Enjoy, and if you feel like donating, know that the Sessums and our COBRA health insurance plan appreciate every penny. If you don't or can't, read on just the same. It's all goooood.
I'll put a link to the side with the other volume for easy access as this post will move along its merry way into my incredibly free archives.
August 16, 2003
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 9:58 PM
when the bee stings.... when I'm feeling sad....
It was a surprise when I heard her yelp LOUDLY from the side of the pool. Yelp? How about scream bloody murder. Yes, sweet girl got her first bee sting today. So many firsts at five. This was yet another. Having never been stung by a bee (yes, I know, weird) even though I used to catch them with my hands and put them in jars, I didn't know exactly what the right course of action was. Luckily one of the pool dads swooped to our rescue, found the stinger, and pulled it out. Of course, it started to swell with nothing to put on it in sight.
"Tobacco" two people said in unison.
Get one of your cigarettes, soak it in water, and squeeze the juice on it. That's what they advised. Nearly everyone there had their grandpapa use the remedy. Is this a southern thing?
For the first time I was glad I still had some cigarettes. I soaked one and made a paste of ground American Spirit tobacco.
"What's that?" Jenna asked.
"Something for bee stings," I lied.
Sort of lied. Thing is, it worked. Within five minutes she said it wasn't hurting so bad. Within a half hour, besides the lump on the bottom of her foot, you wouldn't know anything had gone awry.
This is your Southern tip of the day.
If you get stung by a bee, throw some chaw on it and carry on.
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 9:02 PM
I reconsidered today. I have decided, if you can't beat em, join em.
All bloggers will henceforth adopt the subscription model, pull our archives behind a password and charge $1 per post for downloads. We understand that the NY Times and the Times Online are right. If something's old, it is worth more. Like antiques. Content appreciates with age.
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 10:48 AM
August 15, 2003
If you thought Boulder, CO was immune to the dastardly effects of the North East power outage, think again. Oh dear, RageBoy has been sucked into the black hole of Panix's New York power outage. (If the links work, then that means shit's working again).
No blog (hosted on panix). No email at the old homestead (email@example.com). No nothin'.
BUT, he has asked me to let the blog world know he's still alive and can be reached for sympathy, empathy, and generous monetary donations at firstname.lastname@example.org or through that obsolete boat anchor known as the telephone (720-304-8077).
Glad to be of assistance.
'Til the next lightning strike,
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 12:08 PM
August 14, 2003
the power is on in georgia. i wish it weren't. at my house anyway. I wouldn't want to have to throw out food, or re-set the alarm clocks in the middle of the night, or perspire in the late evening heat. I wouldn't want to not be able to blog or to have to explain to jenna that it will be okay in a few hours.
But I could go for a nice, brief, bring-people-out-of-their-houses-with-a-bag-of-ice-and-some-beers power outage about now.
I hear the lights are coming back on. Or so President Johnson says.
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 11:32 PM
This Article from the Sunday Times Online gives a shout-out to BlogSisters and a mention of yours truly.
I would link to the actual article, rather than the 10-pound (as in money) version I paid to download (can't download individual articles--only in multiples of 10 at a minimum). However, my emails to the editor who contacted me back in June about the story went unanswered once the article appeared. So I never saw it. Never knew when it came out. And now it is, of course, in big-media fashion, behind the pay-to-play firewall.
Obviously, given context clues, my photo made it in, but I'll never know which photo since they asked for a few and since archived articles appear sans photos. Sans personality. Let's see, remove the layout and design, remove the photograph, and charge for it. Um.... okay. That's one way to do it.
If I had time, I'd launch into a rant about big media and its cluelessness as to things even beyond blogging, as in: pulling content behind the magic curtain where people--even the people who contribute to stories, people who are quoted or featured in stories--need to pay for the privilege of reading them.
But I don't have time this evening. So I won't. I'll just bask in another five seconds of fame, which in the end, cost me somewhere close to the tune of $20.
Reason 567 why we'll be here long after they go away.
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 8:01 PM
August 13, 2003
August 12, 2003
It's been this way forever, really. No matter how little sleep I get, no matter how early I wake up (5:30 this/yesterday morning), at 10 p.m. my internal alarm goes CLANG and the night in me comes alive. It's a curse, being a night person in a daytime world.
The night is when I write, the night feeds me, the moon not the sun cuts a path just bright enough to wander through, not knowing what could jump out, what might surprise, what waits quietly inside thick midnight blue.
Midnight blue--the first color I ever chose from the crayon box. Since I was old enough to scribble, it has been my favorite. Draw bright dark circles, press hard, see how black blue can get.
As a teenager, I'd take a flashlight under the covers and write in my notebook sometime after 1 in the morning, poetry, stories, loneliness mostly.
In that bed, the orange-yellow of the flashlight painted the white cotton sheets like the sunset, bright-white paper gleamed so fresh, dying for black ink to press against it, to make love, flesh-like pulp welcoming the stain of words, giving in to voice, receiving.
In college I'd pop no-doze and crank out 20, 30, 50 pages in a night. It didn't matter. Exhaust myself for morning so waking up wouldn't hurt so bad. Night was my heart's bandage.
And then, you start to like it.
You don't mean to.
But what you find in the locusts and crickets, the air alive with deathly quiet, no birds, no singing, just stillness--it aches for voice, for words, for sound, for touch--your sound, your touch.
The night is the empty room waiting for sound, a whisper, a scream.
Dark silence is electric. It is a hand poised with a knife aimed just-so at the socket.
It's the moment before, the time that is not yet.
At night there is hope things can get better. By morning hope gives way to blazing sun, to pain that cracks the eye and welcomes tears down.
I have to take the night. I have to.
The night is in me.
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 11:24 PM
apparently there is something to be said for this hour of the morning. Me, I don't see it. Things should be asleep at 6:30. All things should be restful and dreaming inside peaceful slumber. Not knocking around the kitchen hitting the right side of their heads wondering how they could have managed to run out of coffee beans.
It's dark out.
Dark = sleep.
Oh my goodness.
I am a night person. Have always been. My system is in shock. What do people DO at this hour? Even when I commuted to midtown, I couldn't do this hour. I never strolled in before 9:30. It was not possible for me. Accept me as I am. Love me in spite of my early-morning hatred.
My aunt tells me that I will learn to find something special in the beginning of a new day. That there is something incredible about watching a new day wake up.
It looks dark. Quiet. It looks like things should be sleeping.
I've seen this hour many times in my life, but most often from staying up all night. And I include in those early morning feedings of a new baby.
6:30 for me is a stop along the way of nightime. It's the end of the previous day, not the start of the next.
All things are changing. Time to go wake the kindergartener!
Posted by Jeneane Sessum at 5:51 AM