just exhaustion and anger. that's all. something about being let down. I just want to remember this feeling. so I'm putting it here. no more let downs. letting down. feeling let down. what does it mean? two odd words put together. not feeling down. feeling let down. a discernable difference. something about it not being my fault. who do I let down. my kid. so tired... baby I won't let you down. carry the world on my shoulders. and it's so heavy. there are others. letting me down. down.
how much is it not about feeling down, but feeling let down.
i dunno. i know i want to lay down. but i can't. because someone's bopping around getting ready for her dance recital dress rehersal. ought to go til 9.
i really miss sleeping.
every day I say today I'll take a nap. every day I have emails/work come in, calls, every day it's time to get jenna, or she's here so work goes on until midnight. every day i want to lay down, let down. every day i delay. makes me a little angrier. when do I get to let down?
